Inside Out

So although I might be really behind with watching this movie, this weekend I watched the “children’s” movie Inside Out. Now, I put the word children in quotes because although the movie is an animated Disney movie directed at a children audience it leaves a lot to think about for teenagers and adults. The movie shows us how emotions such as fear, joy, sadness, anger, and disgust control the actions of a girl since the day she was born and actually gives us so much perspective on human nature. After, becoming very intrigued by the movie and watching how the girl grows up and ends up losing joy and sadness after a fight between the two because of sadness’ desire to touch the little girl’s critical memories (which meant that they would forever be tinged with sadness) I started to think about which emotions governed my actions. Throughout her entire life, up until she lost joy, the little girl’s emotions were primarily governed by joy and somewhat assisted by the others when necessary. Thinking back on my life, I’ve always been governed by fear (the nervous wreck) first, and then joy (the one that wants to be happy and see the good in everything) last. Fear had me questioning whether I should join the club I was interested in, whether I should talk to the boy I liked, or raise my hand in class. While, joy was the real me the one that was excited about signing and would love to join anything involving music, that had a sense of humor that would have me holding back tears of laughter in class so that I wouldn’t seem like a crazy person. I want to primarly be governed by joy. Recently in my life I have been making changes, working on becoming a better me and trying to have my life put together. However, I haven’t made much room for joy to take over. I’ve decided that not only do I want to take her out and let her take the reigns every once in a while, I am going to. She’s an essential part of me, the me I want to be. I don’t know what emotions have governed your life or are governing it now but I hope that you may allow the emotions that make you happy, the one that are true to who you are, shine and that the things that have happened in your life don’t burry those essential emotions. You are amazing and deserve to live happy satisfying lives. Love you always!

Xoxo,

Mara

10 Things I Learned in 2015

So I just want to start off by saying 2015 has been a really intense year for me. I lost loved ones, I lost myself, and I lost friendships that were dear to me. However, I also gained a lot. All of these things I’ve learned are big and come from finally getting to a place in my life in which I was dissatisfied to the point of action and as a result I was able to grow.

Here it goes:

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I am enough. It’s okay if someone doesn’t like me whether that be a boy, a classmate, or anyone. The fact that someone doesn’t see value in me does not devalue me or completely erase my value. I’m valuable regardless.

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Fear holds you back from amazing life changing/growing experiences. There’s so much to see, do and learn from that you miss out on when you don’t step out even in fear.

3. It’s okay not to be okay. I don’t have to be perfect and pretend to be something I’m not. That’s exhausting. Transparency is relieving and gains you respect.

4. I am capable of doing ANYTHING I set my mind. Straight As, a blog, a new job; I can do that.

5. Appreciate and hold on to the people in your life who check in on you, who tell you the truth because they love you and don’t have ulterior motives for being your friend.

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If Justin Bieber can make the comeback he did so can I. Haha I love Justin (yup this girl is a belieber) and you can’t deny his comeback was epic.

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  I don’t need to compare myself to others. I’m me and that’s enough. I will never be anyone else. I have my own talents, dreams and desires and am not on the same journey as anyone else.

8. I love to write. I may not be amazing at it but writing is definetly a passion of mine and something I want to continue to pursue even as a hobby.

9. Not everything that people say about me is true. Just because someone thinks I’m weird or I can’t do something doesn’t mean that what they think is true will come to pass or has to be my truth.

10. Everything doesn’t have to be perfect in my life for me to be happy. So what if I’m not at the place I thought I’d be at this point in my life. I’m alive, I’m blessed and I’m determined to progress (that rhymed lol).

Well, that’s it. I hope these inspired you in any way. Let me know what you think, do any of these resonate with you? What did you learn in 2015? Love you always!

Xoxo,

Mara